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I get it.
Are you terribly upset with me?
I kind of noticed.
I’m sorry, Devon. I just became very engrossed in my reading.
I don’t think I even remember what year it is anymore!
No, something is. I don’t- I don’t know why I got so upset. It doesn’t make sense.
I love you, so much. I’m so sorry.
…Maybe it wasn’t all you. I mean, something in his town has been making people crazy.
I forgive you. Of course I forgive you. I hope you’ll do the same, if I’ve upset you.
I don’t want to fight anymore. I don’t. I’m sorry … I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I love you, you know that, don’t you?
Shh. There is nothing wrong with you, Devon.
Of course I know that. I love you, too.
I just- I don’t know. I don’t know what to say, or do. I just feel … wrong.
We could forget this fight. Please.
I don’t like fighting with you, Devon. It feels wrong to me, too. If I’ve made you feel in any way like this.. I am so sorry. I love you more than anything. I only want you to be happy.
If you want me to ever feel like something even close to an equal? Don’t talk about my age. Because all that makes me feel is that you’re messing with me. That I’m some kind of toy to play with, or a little kid you’re babysitting.
Are you.. this is very hurtful, Devon. I don’t believe I’ve ever treated you as anything less than an equal or made you feel less than me in any way. If I have.. I’m sorry. I honestly didn’t mean it.
I just- I never wanted to be collected like some- some porcelain doll or something! I never asked to be put on a shelf and kept out of important issues that affect everything!
If I’m such a fucking child, then why even bother? Why waste your time with me, huh? Because obviously you shouldn’t be.
Why bother? Because I love you. I thought I had made that clear. You are not and will never be a waste of time to me. You are so incredible—and you have so much potential.
I didn’t mean that in a bad way. You’re just …very young for someone who has lived half of a century or more. Seventeen years is a blink of an eye in comparison. Age brings strength and wisdom. I simply wish that you could manage to trust me as I trust you.
I never asked for that! I never WANTED that! I’m not some fragile little kid who needs to be shielded from everything! I’m as much of an adult as I’m ever going to get, Aidan. I have to be able to make my own decisions and take care of myself!
We don’t need help.
You never wanted that? You don’t want to be loved? …I have a hard time believing that, Devon.
And that isn’t true. I’m nineteen, but do you think I haven’t matured since 1860? You are a child compared to some of these people. I know you aren’t fragile; you’re strong and smart and so much more. I just can’t risk you.
You say we like I’m not a part of this town.